intimacy

What exactly is intimacy? Can it be given without sex?

a smile.. a touch.. a hug.. a kiss.. words spoken?

is it how he smiles at you from across the room in a crowd full of people. that split second u make eye contact with him. and that warm smile that comes across his face...

is it the accidental brush up against without acknowledging each other. that simple touch on the shoulder that makes you warm up inside

could it be that hug that last for only 30 secs. yet it seems like it lasted a lifetime. the way he smelled your neck when he hugged u and pushed your hair out of his way. how his hands lingered thru your hair.

that kiss... when his lips met your lips. the soft gasp of air that flowed from your mouth to his mouth. as his tongue slowly slides into your mouth and massages it... how he slowly parts, and smiles at you, and uses his hands to embrace your curves.

is it how he whispered in your ear, or how he speaks to you in person. or the smallest things he said to you on the phone. so simple. yet so sweet.

isn't it great how intimacy can be captured without undressing each other from our clothes. yet how we undress each other mentally.

when was the last time you experienced great intimacy...

heartless...

I've been told I am very cold and heartless. short and distant. conceited and cocky
Is it because I am short with people. Not giving them a chance to get to know me. I don't need an entourage of people in my corner, so why do i need to open up to you. tell you my life story and hug you when it's all said and done. No thanks.
Is it because when you see me. I present nothing but the best. because i am proud of who i am or what i have become. and no shame in telling the world about it. you should be proud too of your own accomplishments
Could it be when it's business.. it's strictly business. don't bring your personal feelings to my business matters. we'll deal with those another day. if it's important. i will shit on you if you try to do that
Am i heartless b/c i see something i want. and won't stop at anything even though i know it's not mine. and rightfully belongs to someone else... well i guess she needs to check up on her man for giving me all this attention.
am i wrong for not caring about the other woman. as long as i am the woman who gets the most of his time. and at the end of the night it don't matter. it's me he wants. i am just too busy for him to keep tied down. he'll use u til i am ready to settle down
^does shit like that make me look bad.. conceited... cocky?
and if it does should i give a fuck???

since when stating facts a flaw. or being honest so rude. or even being straight forward frowned upon

oh, wait am i heartless.. cold... rude.... because 9 times of out ten. i just don't care. if it isn't pertaining to my well being. why should i stress over it.

if people stop sugar coating shit for people. and tell it like it is. it'd be a better place.
stop calling so many people your friends. and opening up to them. only to cry later because they told your business to the whole world of ppl that you thought was private. this is how shit gets started
maybe i play it too safe.. but what is too safe...

behind the cold shoulder is a warm heart. i am actually caring to those that matter. just because you cannot capture my attention. or my kindness doesn't mean i am all the above.
the problem with most of you ppl. you wear your fucking feelings on your sleeve. and me being me. imma smack it off... b/c you allow me too
just b/c you cannot get close to me don't think the worst of me.
there are ways of getting to know me w/o knowing my life story or me calling you my bff.
take a chance. i don't bite.

just don't judge me or knock me for not letting you in

-apm

them three words

Love. As Webster defines it
(1): strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties love for a child> (2): attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3): affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests <love for his old schoolmates> b: an assurance of love love>2: warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion <love of the sea>3 a: the object of attachment, devotion, or admiration love> b (1): a beloved person : darling —often used as a term of endearment (2)British —used as an informal term of address4 a: unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another: as (1): the fatherly concern of God for humankind (2): brotherly concern for others b: a person's adoration of God

Love. As the Bible defines it
I Corinthians 13:4-8

4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant 5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; [2] 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.

What's you're definition of love. and can love even be define. Do we as ppl put too many personal emotions and make love out to be what we want it. mold it to our likings. are we too emotional to allow love be what it should be.
i often heard many ppl say "you cannot control who you love, or how you love". some say we don't love hard enough. or we love too easy. but are these personal emotions tied to it. so is it fair to argue when it's been a short time to say "I love you" and some rebuttal maybe... "In such short time".. or "You can't love me.. You barely know me"

Do we get Love confused with "being in love". I know sometimes it is hard to tell the difference between.. In Strong Likings.. Lust... Infatuation...Desire.... and real Love.

With there being so many different levels of love. How can one immediately say... "isn't it too soon to love me" when it could be a kinship type of love... a friendship kind of love... or could be an actual emotional "love" kind of love.

We are often too scared to even say I love you anymore to the people we feel the love for. We are unsure to their reaction we may get after words. Saying I love you to someone can change their view on you... push them back, b/c they feel you may be moving too fast, or even too clingy. when in fact saying them 3 words may not be as deep as it seems. if we're connected on the level that we mentally think we are then would there be a misunderstanding...

so if i walked up to you today... knowing our "relationship" would you walk away from me... would you say it back... would you fold... or would look at me in the craziest manner...

Them 3 words. short and simple. yet complicated and full of a lot. them words can mean a lot to some. and kindness to others.

why use it in vain...

Poker Face

"I am one of a kind in a full house" said best by J. Ivy.
I live by that motto. because I am one of a kind in a full house. no one is built like me, no one is like me. I am me. and I stand behind that.
I hate the cliche' phrase they say "I am not your typical female".. "I am not your average"... how about "I am beyond your typical and far from your average"
You can say we are all one in the same. I'll call your bluff. We may experience the same pains, and the same pleasures. But the feelings that I felt, you will not feel. You cannot walk a mile in my shoes if I gave you Dr. Scholls for comfort.

I've been listening to my women at my job moan and groan about what the next woman have. "Hate" on what the next woman is doing. Even try to knock a woman down for how she is living. They sit there and they complain about what their "man" isn't doing for them, or what he doesn't have. How he is not providing them with what they need. Sometimes some women need to stop and look at what they can do for themselves, and stop looking for a man to take care of your simple and typical women needs. It is not a man job to get your hair done. You want to look good and presentable for him. You go get it done. It is not his job to get your car fixed. You drive that car not him. It is not his job to pay bills at a house he doesn't reside in. Why do u feel he needs to pay for something he didn't help contribute to. These women all scream "I am independent, I don't need a man to take care of me" So why are you crying because he isn't taking care of you.
Women often frown upon a man who lives at home with his mother before looking at why is he at home with his mother. Women will look and criticize a man for working a minimum waged paying job. Yet praise these fools out here who "has it all" and yet nothing to show for it. or look forward to
I think as women we at times have our priorities fucked up. Living for the moment and the current trend. Yet setting themselves up for failure in the long run. because i have the newest fendi bag.. but yet my lights are about to be shut off. What the fuck is that???
Women despise the next woman because they are making it, and doing it. Yet if you put enough time and energy in helping yourself out.You wouldn't have time to notice what she has and doesn't have. You'd be realizing what you got and what u need to have. and what it's going to take to get you there...

I am just fed up with the bullshit i hear from women and their problems. when their not even helping themselves out.
I am no one to speak on being perfect b/c i am far from it. But i am aware what's going on in my house... and i am not looking to find out what's going on in yours.

Women get your shit together... Stop complaining about what he isn't doing for you. Because i am sure you would not be doing it for him if it came to it. Do it for you. Because no man wants a woman looking for hand outs. if he wants to help you.. please believe it he will. A man respects a woman sentences don't begin with "Give me" Help yourself before you expect someone else to help you... Stop setting these double standards. Equal Opportunity.

Are you ready to play or fold???