pain..pain..pain

i swear i have sooo many controlled substance it id pitiful
first i was prescribed percacets. those really knocked me out. so i couldn't take them at work
next they gave me vicodin... those did the same. but not as much
now i am on ultram... which works but it still makes me tired...
and none of these pills really relieve the pain. just takes the edge off of it
so not only am i dealing with my back problem. now kidney problems
but this shit will not stop me. i got too much going on to slow down.
might slow me up, but fuck it imma keep moving.

recently they discovered i had kidney stones. which is why my back has been hurting so bad as well. i spent a good portion of my Thursday in the hospital due to very very bad pain. they ruled out that it was my back. b/c the pain i was describing was too much for it to have been my back. they ran a million and one labs. and discovered it was my kidneys. they did a sonogram on my kidneys. and so far they can see at least 3 nice size stones in there. god i pray they break down before i pass them. i wouldn't wish this pain on anyone what so ever...

it's definitely messing with my life. i am so out of it at work. i come home and takes these meds, and they knock me out... so no socializing with my friends/peers... soon enough i'll get thru this.

with all the drugs they have given me. i am sure i will be at some comfort.. but not much