tick tock...

time is the most valuable thing we have. it's the one thing you will never get back (besides life).
so why do i always find myself wasting my time on ppl that can give two shits about me. or my time, and how important it is. and deal with when there is no one else around.
i have been dealing with several ppl that has back burnered me like a muthafucka... if i am taking the time out to talk to u. and i am being a "friend-like" person. don't play for some "pass-me-by-time" person. . in the beginning they played me real close. talked to me everyday. morning greetings... nightly wishes... me being me.. when they needed that someone to talk I was there for them. but that's just the type of person i am. as Lem used to say "everybody plays a fool" (yes i am aware that's a song.. but he on a reg said it to me b/c some of my own foolness, and his too). but now when time comes and i need to either talk to them. or shoot the shit about nothing. just causual convo. and i get nothing... delayed conversations... no returned calls or text... or even making the situation about themself.
i hate to sound conceited. and this might turn u off.. but fuck it..
you should be happy someone like me would dedicate my time to even socialize with your likings. so to toss me to the side as if i was a mere nothing to you. the fuck? why waste each other time and not state what it is.. i have no problem w/that. just cant promiose u when ya options have ran out imma be there..
you want me to keep you company when opt A or opt B are not around.. oh let me hit Ayanna up... fuck that.. not no more
i have def cut my circle down, and what few outsiders i've let in. the foot has kissed ya ass and the door has smacked u in the face,
Jaye said it best... if u have more then 10 friends. they're not real friends. i have a very small circle. and i extended my kindness to ppl i thought were a little better than what they have now displayed them self to be.
so to those select few that i have been nice to and decided to take advantage of it, and kick me to the curb til ur other options are gone.. suck a dick.
so if u feel a cold shoulder/breeze. u know why.
fuck u. ya time has ran out
i'm to good for that shit

-apm