you me and she

In almost all cases there will be a "You, Me, and She"

The she could be his friend, or his actual companion. She will know all about you, the ups and downs of your relationship. She is his comforter. She is his best friend. They share "Love you's, and Miss you" She may even invite Him to watch football or chill with her significant other. We tend to worry about the "she" and by all means you should

Even when She is does not pose as a threat she is a threat. She tends to prey on Him when he is down and vulnerable. And if she is right on time she will win over...

But I have news the for "Shes" out there. At the end of the night he will not leave his wife/woman for you. No matter what you whisper in his ear. or how well you may fuck him. or treat him. You are a scape goat. He will use you for what he wants. Of course he will consider you as a true friend. but never anything more than that. If he screws you, he is just fucking you with no emotion. If he tells you he loves you. it's a friendly gesture. He may check up on you, and joke around with you. But that's cause it's fun for now. but his heart is not there.... Once We find out about the depth of the She... He will cut you loose, because nothing is ever better than home. And he will do what it takes to keep home in place. You may call him, cry to him, or reach out to him after the friendship ends. But it'll always be a closed door in the face. As much as it hurts. You can't help but deal with it. Remember you were not the main woman, you were the sideline. Although you may have been there for him, you're nothing more than a friend.. with open arms, and maybe even open legs... Know where you really stand...
as far as the "Me" out there... Take care of home and he won't need her at all. She will only be there for hello's and good byes, hope all is well, and have a good day.

You... Me... & She...

We all are one of them... Which one are you

randomness

Where do I begin...

Work... It's cool starting to pick up for me now. They're letting me do some actual work.. I am enjoying it. and loving it
NYC and Paris here i come...


Christmas... I am not in the Christmas mood at all. I am trying to find the spirit. I am sure i won't but... Merry Christmas. I am sure my family will enjoy the gifts.

The New Year... I am not certain yet what is going yet. But I will be in New York City. It's a lot to do, and a lot of people to see...

As far as me... I will be better with time.

be well

1st week of work

Has been soooo boring. LOLz
This week has been pretty much me shadowing someone, and me doing a lot of ready, and online module trainings to learn the system. and their programs they use regularly.
The people so far are really nice, and welcoming. They are definitely on their shit at this company. everyone is on the same page, and knows what needs to be done. there is no questioning who has what or is doing what, b/c it is already established. They be on it. Fast pace, and I love it
But this reading shit is for the birds. Give me some work to do... lol
But i am loving the atmosphere already. how they move and work. the ppl there have a straight forward attitude, and keep it business as usual
lets see how it in the next month.
apm*

they call me DRAMA

Where do I begin with my week line up of drama...
When drama unfolds in my life it really unfolds in my life. I mean not one dramatic thing happens... But a slew of them happen...

Me and my best friend fell out over her not being honest with me. Saying she was trying to protect me. I am thinking to myself. We've been through so much for the past 20 yrs maybe... what the hell could u be possibly protecting me from. when you are one of the harshest person i know. so what could u possibly protect me from. in the end we resolved our issue. been friends too long to let something like this break us up... she just better not let it happen again...

Me and another fellow acquaintance fell out. It was bound to happen eventually. we were slowly drifting apart. it only took a mere mistake to break the camels back. it was an honest mistake. but what can u do about it. cannot cry over spilled milk. clean that shit up and keep it fucking moving. life goes on. . they say ppl come in u life for certain reasons. whether they last a life time or just stay for a season... i guess i was just seasonal... i'll be just the like the rest of the females that entered in and out of his life. leaving a mark for the good tho, i hope.

Me and Lem arguing battles... somethings just cannot be avoided. and this incident couldn't be, but will be prevented from next time. i won't get into details. but it has to hit home before the problem can be completely resolved and laid to rest


and this has been the drama of Ayanna's life

tune in next time..
still laughing @ Amber saying my life would be an reality show
you'd get bored if u had to watch me.. lol

i'm sending u some text messages(poem)

i live to please all of your needs
fulfilment is my endearment
til my dying breathe
and even til then
i will do the necessary to you
to keep yourself complete
still
that isn't an easy feature
but once such as myself
these aren't features
but the most melodic of beats
that soothes one to sleep

ignorance is bliss

As some may be aware I am home in Dallas with my family for Thanksgiving.
Also while I am here... I've been helping Alli find a wedding dress... Now this has been the worst "help me with my wedding" experience i have gone thru so far, and we're only on the dresses. i think everything else will be easy. Her dress she just wants to be the best.... -back to the reason i wrote this blog-
Having worked in retail before i learned not to judge a book by its cover. no matter how the person looks. never think they have less than you or that you are better than them.
I had one of the worst experiences at Blush Couture Co... My sister being the pain in the ass she is... selected maybe 7 dresses to try on. All nice dresses. She even seen one she really wanted. But due to the fact the dumb bitch helping us couldn't help but put her foot in her ass we will not be purchasing the dress from there.
As we are trying on the dress... the attendant suggested we look at the "cheaper dresses" just not in those words. The first few dresses she showed my sister were the lowest price in the store. after that she made a suggestive statement saying "Some of those dresses on that wall can get expensive, have you seen these dresses".. these dresses again being cheaper priced dresses... i then go and say before she extremely pisses me off... "Ma'am your job is to show us dresses, not direct us to what you feel may be fitting price wise. let's stick to that". of course she gets this fucked up attitude... and says "I just want to make sure we're not wasting each others time by trying on dresses we know you cannot afford" by then i am highly pissed.
so i broke the bitch down... from her over worn shoes. to her not so hot outfit. if u work in a bridal shop this high class, your clothes should match the company you work for. your lifestyle should to. i also pointed out how low paid she was, and how she couldn't even afford a dress in the store she works in. and i did this in the nicest way. i even closed it out by saying. you just missed out on an probably one of the biggest sales. b/c we were going to do the whole bridal party(7 dresses) and wedding gown, with accessories there. totaling close to 20-22k.
bitch don't fuck with me. we'll take our business else where.. she hurried up and apologized when the other attendant told her what we had already picked out, and the transaction had been approved. but b/c she had to be how she was... fuck u...
this is what happens when u think someone can't afford to buy you're dresses.
i laugh at stupid ppl

what's really going on...

Not a whole lot...
Just been dealing with everything that comes my way.
I am looking at a house in Montclair, NJ. I hear they have really nice houses up there. I rather have a house than have an apartment. Right now i have my eyes set on this condo in midtown(nyc). really nice and a lot of room too. But i rather have a house than an apartment.

Finding my way to make common grounds with people. and found out it's a lot more in common than i knew. and idk how to feel about it. so i won't. just let it fly away. cause that's probably best...

my boy went MIA on me. i am sure he's been busy with w/e it is he's doing. but what can u do about it. may attempts to stay in touch. if u still failed. u know u did your part. -shrugs- pretty much how i feel about the whole situation.

Julian did it again :) all i'm going to say about that one. Gotta love that guy


My song of the moment is. Adele "Chasing Pavement"
love her voice and that song

I am currently home for the time being.
Helping my sister with her wedding. and getting her dress.
this has been the worst ever. my sister has went thru about 20 something odd dresses
narrowed it down to 5 and then turned around and put them all back.
It's been great being home. Getting back intouch with my family.
and catching up with them. it's going to suck going back to LA. but hey i got to

that's my life.
what's really going on?

"she's wants that old thing back"
werd... and i'm not alone on that one