...letting go

It's so hard to do... when you really love someone. but if you love them enough you will let them go so they can live their life to the fullest. and if it was really meant to be it's come back to you...
Sounds good and easy. But reality of it. It's not that easy. To have spent 2 yrs of your life dedicated to one person. Doing everything you could to make them happy, but still coming up short with some of the small things that matter. From having someone there in the morning, and in the late night. With deep love and compassion... to having nothing
It's amazing how things change when you break up with someone. If it's mutual or not. Keep it clean or go out dirty and nasty. I am trying to make this a clean break as possible. No low blows. Or dirty punches. We are both aware of our wrongs, and what we did right.
But how do you let go of what you are used to. They say time heal all wounds. But scars never fade away.
Pictures may fade, but memories sure don't. Some mornings i wish i woke up with amnesia and could forget him and the past two years. But some of the best feelings came from them two years. I had a friend, and a man who supported almost everything I did. I am sure things coulda been a lot different. But we'll never know
I am aware of where I went wrong, but I am aware of everything I did right too. I was almost too perfect, but not just right. Missed the smaller things... The main missing pieces to the puzzle was me. So at the end of it all.. It lied in my hands as every thing else did. Power of position failed me....
Although I'll always love him... I can't say he's the one that got away... I'm the one that got away.
In the end... I lived. I loved. and best of all I learned. from this experience...
I am willing to let go of a love b/c it's best for him, and better for me.
In the end. he is were he was when i first met him. to when we split..
and me.. I'm all over the place.
With time comes progression. No more holding each other back...

So with this... i bid a love farewell...
no more writing. no more talking about the would of.. could of.. should of...

life goes on.. and so do people...

this is my letting go...

expiration date...

Do they really exist... does everyone have one... when do you know when the time has come and it's time has expired. Everyone has there time to cease and fades to black from the scene. But when do u know that person has reached its expiration date. How does one expire?
Is it brought on by discussion? or lack of them. Turn-ons are now turn-offs. New people in your life? New season new change?
A lot of reasons could be why someone has exceeded their time with you, and has expired for usage

In my lifetime. People have come and go. Others have stayed. Extended expiration date? No, the truth never expires. So i keep them around.
I have recently let go a lot of ppl i considered friends, for many reasons that are beyond even mentioning. Their time has just expired with me. A relationship ended. Not b/c it wasn't wanted. but it just expired. and exceeded its time frame. I ran out of time, and my time with him expired. As well as my time with others...
Can you get upset with it. I wouldn't say you should. Just know ppl come into your life for a reason. I just hope whatever it is they taught you, or brought to you in that time frame you take with you. Don't be spiteful b/c your time is up. Be grateful you were even able to have that time with that person. Make good use of your time with whomever or whatever because u'll never know when your time is up.

So check your calendar and see when is your expiration date..

apm